The journey so far...

I joined Blogger in 2009. And then I got pregnant.

Yes. You read that right. I was aimlessly wading through unexplainable mood swings of an unknown first trimester when I decided to start up a Blog. The steering was jammed, the accelerator just wouldn't work, the brakes failed and I decided to jump out of the seat. I was right.

but then, how can you dare to push-start a car on a desolate road, without a co-passenger at the wheel?
The realization dawned upon with a flicker of an idea to write. Write to myself. About myself.

I have been an ardent lover of the fountain pen and lined writing pads. I remember keeping some ink reserved for my mid-teen love letters, while I chose the pocket money-friendly "Gel" ones for school exercise books.

I started with some complaining articles. Most of them were poetic verses, xrayed to reveal my "stressed", "depressed" soul. I had zero followers, zero comments and was the sole reader of my own emotions.

And then the budding cotyledons within me started spreading out her palms, slowly lifting me up to the sunshine and the rain. A wave of regulations, appointments, ceremonies and tests kept me occupied. The writing slowed down. The flow of words didn't. I weaved them inside my head, sometimes on paper, sometimes on the shoulder of the man who had just taken his transfer of job to my city to be with his "girls" (Little did we know then). The baby arrived amidst a lot of happy bustle amidst my Bengali household and blogging packed its bags and left for oblivion.

I revisited my blog again in 2011. The poor place was unearthed from cobwebs. I had mixed feelings. It gave me the remnants of Miss Havisham's untouched, decayed wedding cake in form of unfinished drafts of a boisterous whiff. It also gave me the childlike glee of finding a moth eaten cardboard box of collected marbles. I tried to arrange some of it.  I couldn't. I left, silently.

Many years passed. Many things happened. Some did not. A few hairs turned grey and I, twenty nine.

This afternoon, I checked my balance and found plenty of it. Plenty enough to revive something long forgotten. So, I cashed out some time, changed the canvas, brought some colours, cleaned the easel and decided to start.

I re-named my blog. And I re-innovated it.